(as this tale involves certain people, and due respect, i will use only the "titles" which is etched in my mind, to hide the identity)

a month has past since i last narrated my tale, and today's story will be very long, long indeed....

it is the first tale i have written since i turned 16 about fifteen days ago, thus this one will bring great meaning of great importance.

24th of may 2008, is a day of reckoning for the interactors of our school. not only because it is a change of the times and era, it is also a day where all enjoyed themselves despite all the differences. this, is known as the international understanding day (IU for short). all these, however, did not felt by me, as it does not flow with my blood in my veins.

if that's the case, then i shouldn't have present myself in this event, let alone narrating it. however, it may be a twist of fate, not only i was present in that event, and i had some memories of great meaning which altered my mindset once again.

maybe some will ask, what is the purpose of the archknight to attend this? the reasons are twofold, one is to give actual support to my own friends who took charge in all the planning for this event. secondly... i dun need to say, all will know what i will continue.

as the theme for today is of transylvanian theme, thus i clad myself as a dark knight, evil knights which supports the undead like vampires in their cause against the paladins (holy warriors). one of the pictures in the latest photo album of mine will tell you what i wore.

i reach the place at around 11am. after registering myself and chose my seat, i walked around and see the nearby sceneries. the event started on time, and there were many VIPs in there, such as the deputy headmistress, 2 teachers, and the rotary club president of brickfields, etc....

at first nothing special happened (not to me at least). however, when came to the introduction of the new board members and the speech of the incoming president, i suddenly found out something peculiar, something which i had never experienced before. this is the 1st time i feared to look directly into the eys of the archpriestess. her eyes are charming in a sense, not scary at all. however, why in the heavens i fear to look into it, when there is no dark power behind ???

this is because, when i looked directly into her eye, not only it interprets glory, success, pride and happiness, it also reflects back my own weakness, which is...

i) incompetent of dealing matters when variables existed

ii) self-centered in my mindset and disregards others

iii) conservative mindset and unwilling to open the mindgate

iv) mingle only with people whom i know well, unwilling to take the initiative of expansion

v) take pride in whatever i have, disregarding the credits of others

vi) lack of a final will to do something when i decided to do so

all these are the most apparent weakness which i do not wish to recall it back, thus i feared looking into her eyes.

after all the speeches, it is lunch. lunch also exhibits another nature of mine --- impatience. i was unwilling to wait for long queue to get the food. as i was not hungry that time, due to lack of appetite lamenting my own mind, i decided not to queue.... at the same time was the giving out of membership cards to the interactors...

after lunch was all the gaming activities, including the blindfold game and mummy wrapping. all these gave us the laughters. consequently is the fashion show, which also exhibits the fashionable side of mankind. vampire, witches, crusaders, angels.... and all sorts. the lucky draw also gave a lot of suspense, as people waited for their numbers to be called out. it interprets to me as "a twist of fate may create dreams and wonders, as well as rewards and success. at the same time, downfall and misfortune is also a possibility."

with the performance going on, i meditated in my mind, interpreting the meanings of all these. then came the performance of the incoming board. all of a sudden it seems to me that a surge of feeling asked me to take a video of their performance, and so i did, barely make it through, as my memory card was nearly full. (the videos will be attached at the post on the 27th may, which of the tales of the book fair, which will happen on the 26th)...

the next was singing of benjamin (the inquisitor), the lyrics really touched my heart, and the eye barrier was nearly broken. with the end of the performance comes the fellowship part, when all lights were switched off and the only light source was from the candles. under the influence of techno music, the crowd was whipped into a frenzy where all danced (all right, including me, who studied too much and needs a crazy time.. haha)

later when i thought back, all these are like discos in a pub, by the music alone people can by whipped into a frenzy, they can dance tirelessly until the end, which i saluted their endurance, and also interprets my conservative thinking-style, or rather not holding to western cultures. i do not know whether this is a positive sign or otherwise, need your help to answer me.

still, the main issue is not this, it is of the picture taking. i failed to keep my perseverance and broke my principle, which is not to take advantage on any person, whether in whatever form. this one i kept since i was form 2, never once did i break it.

yet, that day, for some reason, i broke my principle. how did i broke it ? the answer is actually very obvious, which is i did something which is so evil or malicious to the extent of breaking my well-held principle. the occurance happened like this: i requested the archpriestess to have a picture with me, and all right, she agreed.

if it is agreed, why did i say i broke my principle? the taking of the picture may be given the consent, however i could control myself no longer, moments before the picture was snapped .......................... (i refused to say it, to those who knew it, let it be)

and obviously, i took my hand away the moment she asked me not to do so. immediately i left after the picture was snapped, thinking of what i have done. how can the archknight who is stubborn and obstinate mind can commit such an evil act ? this one i immediately knew the answer, it is of my lust.

the power of lust is actually very powerful, so powerful that it can change the nature of a person, breaking down the humanity and morality of mankind. looking back to the causes of all the evil deeds which causes destruction, hate and suffering, which of these is not caused by the power of lust ? i salute you if you can give me one.

and it is also because of lust that i can hold out no longer, unable to adhere to my own principles and commited this evil act. taking advantage towards another person without him or her even knowing the intent of the person is considered evil, and i avoided it at all costs. and yet, i did it today, what in the heavens is everything i have said ?? what "the archknight must keep his perseverance" or "never to take advantage of any person i see", all this now to me is meaningless, as ironically i done it.

it was a wonder that she did not give me a tight blow on the temple, and let me go just like this. however, i can see it from her eyes, fear, scared and the will to avoid me is what i interpreted, this gave me an even greater remorse. i thought: if we are to compare each other of our ages, one could see that i am elder than her by 5 and a half months.

if i'm elder than her, then i must possess a more mature mindset than her, as what the elders have. however, this evil act of mine has greatly affected my mind, it seems that my mind has been corrupted, turned evil and hinders the truth of light. i doubt of my mind now.... due to my good memory, even when she has forgotten what has happened when i see her again in 2 weeks time, i can never forget the evil i done on her.... it will remain in my mind until i die it seems, even if she did not resolve in forsaking the fellowship or rather friendship which remained....

thus, i conclude this with a sentence: "this IU day is a great success to the committee members who poured their heart and soul to plan it and bring it to its greatness, it is also a place for the archknight to learn a new chapter of lessons of life."

written by the archknight, 24th may 2008, 9.33 p.m.